February 2, 2012

Sometimes


To all you beautiful, lovely, incredible women out there who have written me lately expressing such deep, heart-felt feelings of sorrow and pain, fear and courage, doubt and decision about your children and your role as a young mother, I want you to know how amazing you are. And I also want you to know, you are not alone.

Everyone wears the mask of bravery and happiness to hide their pain, fear, doubt, or sorrow, at some point in their lives. Everyone.

Am I always as happy as my posts make me out to be? Of course not. Often they are a mere moment in my day, a funny experience I latch on to to uplift and sustain me. Sure I try to be real and honest on here, but if I were to share every piece of dirty laundry I have sitting in my basket, you guys would probably never come back.

Would it surprise you to know that Hubby and I got in a big fight several days ago and we are just barely starting to work through it? That our relationship in general takes a lot of effort and work? That my kids have been screaming and fighting, hitting and crying almost non-stop for days? That come dinner time I have smoke curling from my flared nostrils and I am barking bedtime orders double time with no patience?

It got so bad I broke open the bag of chocolate chips that I promised myself not to touch until I actually used it in a recipe.

Pish, whatever. Recipe be hanged.

The other night I fed my children chicken nuggets and hot dogs for dinner because I flat out had no desire to cook.

That's pure mom awesomeness right there. I deserve a prize. I'm thinking something cute for my feet. Shoes are ever forgiving and never judge me. Unlike my jeans who are so critical of all the chocolate I eat.

Whatever. They don't like it? They can always be replaced.

So there.


In all sincerity though, I am well aware that so many are fighting pains and sorrows deeper than I have ever experienced in my life. And sometimes that makes me feel petty. I try not to be, but I suppose I often am.


Try not to be so hard on yourself. All of us here, now, reading this, are struggling with something.

It may not be okay today, or tomorrow, or the next day.

But hang in there and before you know it, it will be okay.

One day at a time.


P.S. Okay, be honest you guys. Is it weirding you out that I'm writing all these serious posts lately? Would you rather I stick to the comic relief? 'Cause I can do that. I confess I'm feeling rather uncertain about my blog these days, if posts like this are really wanted. It has always been a funny-happy place. But now I'm writing all these strange, serious things.

Go ahead, you can comment anonymously if you have to. I can handle it.... if you break it to me gently.... I have an extra stash of chocolate by my side for back-up.

25 super cool people speak:

Melissa said...

Keep blogging exactly how you've been. You keep it real...and you give humor when we need it :)

In short....don't change a thing!

Cherie said...

Serene this is a wonderful post. I am no longer a young mother but I so remember having days like the ones you described. Motherhood is tough!

I think this post will give many a needed boost.

Love how you write both serious and funny - keep up the good work!

ElizaO said...

Serene, I've got to say I've loved your posts - your funny ones and your more serious ones and all that goes in-between. You've always been a great shoulder to lean on and example of what it means to be a daughter of Heavenly Father - with all it's ups and downs! ::hugs::

Renee said...

Keep blogging the way you do...raw, real and true. :)

As far as fighting with the hubs, I try all the time and pray all the time to be a better wife. AJ and I rarely fight but when we do my Irish temper gets in the way. I am stubborn and hold my ground. LOL
I have been trying to repeat in my head before I head down that road my new mantra. "Will this moment matter in 10 years?" Since I have been doing this some moments have passed through and not mattered. I think it is in our nature to disagree sometimes. As my Mom says "This to shall pass". :)

Vanessa said...

Thanks, from the bottom of my heart.... I love your blog, I like how you word things, and find humor in things that are not so funny at time. But most of all, I am glad you are human, and can keep it real. Fights with hubby, stinks. I hope you can fix that quickly, if that relationship is not going smooth.... Nothing else does. Good luck. And hot dogs, and chicken nuggets are a perfectly balanced meal. And you don't have to force it down their throats.

Heather said...

I love your blog just the way it is. I love how you can keep it real, life is like that... Thanks for the encouraging words today, and the laughs other days=)

Royalbird said...

Even your serious posts have that humor in them. I wish I could see the funny side of serious things.

Brandy Lynn said...

I was just thinking yesterday that I love your blog!! Seriously, it is so good to read a blog that is not all roses and daisies. You are funny, thoughtful, inspiring and honest and I love it. Keep it up! Serious posts and all!!

Heather S said...

I think in general ppl have a way of making things 'appear' better online. (I think brad paisley has a song.. about being 'so much cooler online".)
I love your blog. it's funny, uplifting, honest, real and encouraging. I think it's perfect just the way it is. you let us know you have struggles (aka- your a normal mom/wife), yet don't air your dirty laundry. You have the perfect balance/blend.

The Bagley Family said...

You are REAL!!! I love your blog and totally get what you are saying...is it bad my kids have had toast 2 nights in a row...for supper? You cannot see the floors in my house...none of them...I am behind in laundry by like 30 loads (and I think I gave myself some wiggle room there...ugh!). I prmised my kids a trip to Disney if they could sit through one meal without fighting...needless to say my kids are never going to see Mickey at the rate they are going:)
I come to your blog to feel NORMAL! I think all the mothers here relate to you, nd when you show us your messy rooms I laugh cause I am thinking, 'You call THAT a mess? I will show you a mess...' lol keep blogging, change nothing, keep feeding your kids hot dogs and chicken nuggets for super:) Besides it gave me an idea for supper tonight...

Amanda said...

I like the ocassional serious post. I'll be honest: sometimes your posts make me grit my teeth, because you seem so happy and cheeerful all the time and I'm not. I end up thinking, "What the hell's wrong with me? I only have two kids. I should have it together better than this." I realize that's more my problem than yours, but it's still nice to know that you're not filled with joy every moment of the day.

Kris said...

LOVE your posts, they are real and true...no need to change anything...you help us get through our own days(: thanks...many blessings, K

Sue said...

I love it all, up, down, or sideways.

Just keep 'em comin'!

=)

the fowlers said...

all i can say is that you inspire me: and not just to eat bags of chocolate chips (which i have inexplicably started doing after i started reading this blog... because it works, somehow).

Carrie said...

What I love about your posts is that you can tell that you DON'T have it altogether! (That's not a rude comment, I promise). Your blog is wonderful and real as so many others have said so keep on doing what your doing.

Amber said...

For what it's worth, I have no problems. None. Life is easy-peasy. And I can, for a fact, tell everyone the same about yours.

Ha. Just kidding.

Love you, Serene friend. Maybe if I ever make my way back to the west I will come visit you and your hoodlums.

Kim said...

Don't change a thing! Every comedy needs a little emotional relief from time to time!

Tiff said...

Thank you. Love this post - and all your others. Keep it up. :)

Polly Blevins said...

I just keep reminding myself (about myself and others) that we are all just doing the best we can. Sometimes we excel and other times, we need improvement. It's okay though, as long as we just keep trying our kids will all turn out happy, loving, productive people and we can tell ourselves that we didn't do too bad.

Polly Blevins said...

ps. I really hate it when someones blog is always about how crazy they feel because of their kids. I know they think it is funny to sound frazzled ALL the time but it makes me think, "why do they keep having kids they hate it so much". So thanks for the mixture because there are a lot of times when I am frazzled but I like to think that it is not all there is worth talking about.

Amy said...

What can i say that probably hasn't already been said (I didn't read the other comments, I admit it.)

I adore you and your blog, the funny/serious/venty/laughy posts alike. Post what you want.

Charlotte said...

I like your posts and I think a serious one now and again makes you more real. Although I also think your blog is primarily for you and you should post what YOU want more than what anyone else wants.

I've found that trying to find humor in a stressful situation (you know, like being a mother) makes it more tolerable. I figure you must feel the same way and I never mistake the humor for an easy problem-free life.

Mama Smith said...

I don't know ONE mother...who isn't a mixture of all your posts...We are a "mix and match" group of women...Though, my memory is fading...I can't remember the tough times of being a mother...except on a few occasions and those moments are the ones I felt "I" didn't handle the situation right...HONESTLY...

LIFE is for LEARNING...GROWING...BECOMING...
Quite frankly...dear Sisters...as long as our hearts are about the DESIRE to do better...even a little bit...we are on the RIGHT COURSE...going in the RIGHT DIRECTION! ONWARD...dear Sisters...we are AWESOME! And to my incredible daughter...YOU have been SUCH A BLESSING...! LOVE YOU DEARLY! You are on the RIGHT PATH...occasionally...we do walk too close to the edge...but, the trick is not falling off...completely! YOU GO GIRL!

mCat said...

The one thing that draws me to a blog and keeps me coming back are those that are real. Funny and serious.

Great post that I know a lot of other young mothers needed to read.

hjsmith said...

Oh Sarah, I dont know how I missed this blog but I guess it is couse I need it more now then before. I havent read the other comments yet but wanted to say please keep writing like you are. YOu keep it real weather being funny or not. Please know you have so many readers including myself cause there is a need of feeling understood, not alone and hope that even if it is a bad day tomorrow might just be a better one...
I hope you know how much you are loved and appreciated and not just by family but all of these amazing people who read your blog and more.
Thank you and please keep doing what you are doing....I know I need it(:
Miss you(: I wish we lived closer. Maybe one day if the Army makes it happen(: Again thank you(;

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