August 18, 2011

Forgive me for re-posting

*crinkle... stuff...chew chew*

*speaking with mouth full*  You know, *swallow* sometimes you say something once and it seems like you just can't say it any better than you did that very first time.

So it is in this case. So forgive the re-post but it's just so... it just feels so... perfectly adequate today.

Just don't ask me why. *crinkle crinkle dig dig*     Ah nuts... I'm out of chocolate chips....




"Did you ever get the feeling that you were being watched, and that maybe that thing watching you is... ehhh, a giant elephant in the sky?"  -Horton Hears A Who



Heh, and you know those times when you just feel like every little thing you do is wrong and horribly awful even if it really isn't it just feels that way because someone else has it more together than you do and you know you shouldn't compare yourself to others but sometimes it's hard not to especially when it feels like everything is spinning out of control and you are at a loss as to how stop it all and get back on track and save your children the embarrassment of having such an awful parent who seems to goof up everything all the time and who wonders why the heck they were even given children if they are just going to mess up their lives with their own imperfections and so you feel like the scum of the earth for even existing and having the gall to become a parent in the first place and messing up all of humanity and bringing nothing but chaos and destruction to the world!


*massive intake of breath*

Do you know that feeling?

*crickets chirping, blank stares*

Whew... *nervous laughter * me either.

12 super cool people speak:

Saimi said...

I've heard the fifth child is the breaking point. Not that it's the child, but its the number.

It's the talk among the young moms of five I know. "Oh four is great, but five...it'll do you in."

Hang in there, it all eventually works out!

Sue said...

You are such a funny person, Serene.

I like that about you.

=)

Shelley said...

Thank you for your blog! I have been following for sometime! My first comment!!! I feel like I am headed down the same path... I have 3 ages 3 and under! So it makes me smile to see your blog! Keep up the good work! Oh and I love your taco biscuit casserole recipe!

Serene is my name, not my life! said...

Ah shucks... *blush* thanks Shelley! And I feel ya sista! My first three were 3 and under! Good times my friend... good times. :D

Garvin Smith said...

That's right: GOOD TIMES!
Remember, The more, the merrier!
Six . . . seven, eight, ten, twelve, FIFTEEN!!!

Mama Smith said...

Though...there were days...like what you expressed...however...in the end...you will be BASKING in the JOY...of watching your children as grown adults...and ENJOYING all those adorable GRANDCHILDREN! Then, you can share all those wonderful stories of your children to your ADORABLE GRANDCHILDREN! (smile)

The Kooky Queen--Rachel said...

You're amazing, love this! And girl---you need to get the 10 pound bag of chocolate chips from Costco! I never seem to run out. :)

hjsmith said...

YOu are so not alone. I so feel your blog(: I always wanted to be a mom and have a wonderful family...no one ever said how hard it would be...and yes mom worth it, but boy is it hard. Sarah you have a beautiful family. I look forward to seeing you and part of your family in October, wishit was the whole gang(:
Have a great and wonderful day. One mom to another(:

marcie said...

My primary president stopped by at 9ish the other day, all 100 pounds of blonde perfect hair perfect clothes perfect makeup of her. Her knock on the door got me out of bed, I ran and threw on the first clothes I found (this is why Owen is afraid of the doorbell, it always makes me run) and answered the door. Owen in a diaper, house a DISASTER with a capital D, and no bra. Trying to play it cool "Hi! What's up?" Long story short after she left I looked around my pitiful abode and Audrey said "What's wrong mom?" "I'm just embarrased that my house is such a mess right now." "It's okay mom. The house is a mess because you play with us!". I felt better. Well just a little. :) But seriously would a phone call have KILLED her!? It's times like those that it's hard not to compare. I just try to think of how good I made her feel that day about herself. haha. And try not to be judgemental if I'm ever on the other side of the fence of getting it together. We women can be so hard on each other, unintentionally I think but the appearance of perfection is not the same as the perfection of character we are supposed to attempt. Holy cow, sorry for the novel. Love ya!

Eliza said...

Oh my gosh, I feel this way almost daily. I swear there are so many different ways to mess them up. I read a new article weekly telling me how I'm going to land them in therapy. Not to mention my flaws and weaknesses thrown into the mix, and its downright terrifying. Anyway, I just wanted to say, I totally relate, but as my sister and mom always tell me, there really was a reason they were given to you, (in my mind it means, I was meant to be their trial. yeah, I'm a mess) and, yes, you could probably name what your doing "wrong", but I promise there is so much you're doing right, that no one else could do but you! Seriously, I think you're such a great mom, you really seem to have such a good perspective, and have the patience of job, not to mention in the process being super funny about it. So, anyway, feel better, you're not alone, and you're doing awesome!

Cathy said...

Oh, no, I never feel like that ... except for six of seven or a hundred times a day (depending on the day)
*big sigh of relief and head wipe that someone else can relate*
Love your blog, glad I found it.

Anna@Exasperation said...

I just found your blog. I read your post on the MBB community page (about family planning) and I HAD to read your real blog.
Whew. I just needed to read this. All of it.
And this particular post totally made me laugh because that's about how I feel today.
Sigh.

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