I honestly thought that having Savannah in school would help. She seemed so bored around here at times. She loves being around people. She loves to be social. So I thought she would be a little happier once school started, especially since she wanted to go so badly.
But I'll be honest, it hasn't helped a bit. In fact, when she comes home she seems grouchy and sassy. Like she needs a really long nap or something. Well, maybe she does but she stopped taking naps when she turned two.
My two best friends came up to visit me yesterday and even they commented on how much of a teenager she is. Its kind of hard to miss the attitude. Sometimes its cute, sometimes... not so much.
And yet, she's still my little girl. Today was her first time riding the bus to school. I had been dropping her off these first couple of days. As I walked her to the bus stop she was so excited she wouldn't stop talking!
When the bus finally arrived, it was already pretty full. I watched her climb on and continued to watch her through the windows as she made her way slowly to the back of the bus looking for a seat. Her smile had quickly changed to a big frown as she couldn't seem to find a seat.
Finally, a couple rows from the back, I saw her squeeze past a couple kids over to a window seat on the far side of the bus. So I couldn't smile and wave, or give her a big encouraging mommy smile. I actually, for a brief moment, wanted to cry. It all just seemed so sad.
I hope she's okay. I hope she has fun.
I wish she were back home.